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Why do we keep doing this to ourselves

It seems to me that all humans want to is tear themselves down and make themselves feel awful. Why can’t we all just love ourselves and make our definition of beauty internal and love what we see in the mirror. We always create the image of the “perfect” version of us based off of what we see on t.v. and extremely edited photos in magazines, but it’s not their fault. We are the ones  that choose to see only certain features as beautiful and then make ourselves and others feel bad when they don’t contain those features. Why can’t we celebrate all types of people and love ourselves and each other. These are just the thoughts running through my mind on a Saturday night. Goodnight you guys (I just had to get that off my chest)

…Love yourself… Be your own version of beauty… and all that jazz ♡♫✌☺



Okay, So I know I have not dedicated as much time to this blog as much as I would like to, but I just need to get some feelings out. This year has taught me so much about people and how they treat others. I have realized that so many people have hidden motives and don’t really want to help you just for the sake of helping you. Take for example volunteering for the past couple of years I have volunteered at a camp because I love kids. Every kid I talk to who volunteers only cares about hours and validation awards and appreciation. My school like most schools has to face the facts and lay off tons of teachers 70% of those teachers laid off are from the music department, So the board of education decides to award all these music kids publicly even though some of our favorite teachers are getting laid off. Why does everything have to be political and mechanical? Why can’t we just be loving? I just want to have hope for human kind again.

A message for everyone

Happy Spring Break! Due to the fact that most of my friends are on vacation I’ve been alone for a couple of days which has given me some time to think. I’ve been thinking about life and my future and how unsure it is. Two years ago I was a freshman and I was so sure of my life I had my future tied up into a nice little package. Graduate high school then get into AMDA or NYU then become an actress or lyricist on Broadway. Obviously I was very young and naive, but now I understand how difficult it is to really be an actress. Here’s an example My high school recently put on a fabulous production of West Side Story and I remember every part of my audition. My vocal audition was without a doubt horrible and my dance was no better my acting was the only part I felt confident about, but as I watched others go through their acting I realized how much better I could’ve been. If there were cuts in this show I am sure that I would’ve been one of the first to be cut. I feel as though I would be so easily overlooked in the professional world because I lack almost everything a Broadway actress has: beautiful lines when they dance, powerful vocals, and amazing stage presence. So I am left with two choices either sit here and sulk or try to better myself in order to gain these qualities. So I am enrolling in dance classes next year and getting a voice and acting coach this summer. Even if this specific situation isn’t the same as yours the message I want to send is applicable to almost everything in life. If you want something (I mean you really want it with all your heart) you have to go for it and be willing to go through some serious sh*t to do it!

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